Don't cry, people. No one died, although I feel as if that's true nowadays.
It's an emo thought, I know, but sometimes I don't want to befriend people anymore. I don't want to spend moments with them anymore and create bonds with them. Why? It's because, when they go away, they take a part of me with them. Somehow, I feel empty when they go. That's just makes me more emo than I already am.
I remember my high school graduation. Before that, I always wondered why most people cry in such events. Why shed tears? We should be happy, since we're moving up in the world. Well, now that I've had my share of tears in my own graduation, I answered myself. Separation from familiarity is hard to accept. Nothing is forever, and yet we humans want forever things. I thought that those people I was with would stay with me until the end of time. Such thinking is the result of strong bonds.
Now, why am I talking about goodbyes? Why am I spending time typing when I could just cry out my sadness?
I can't. I have a sore throat. That's why I resort to typing. =p
The reason is that some of my friends in UPLB are not going to be in UPLB anymore next semester. Some are going out of family duty, some are looking for education's "greener pastures", and some just find it difficult.
They are my friends. Friends have special bonds. This is what makes me feel all the farewell attitudes I got from post-graduation again. I find it difficult to let go of people, especially ones who, directly or indirectly, made an impact on me (yeah, I'm talking 'bout you, Jai).
How about me? Why am I packing up my stuff from my dorm and moving out of LB myself? Well, here's a story:
It was my first day of classes in UPLB. I woke up at 5:00 AM just to get ready. My bed was a double-deck bed, and I sleep at the bottom. When I woke up, I bumped my head on the low upper-deck bed. I lay back on my pillows, wincing as my headache slowly subsided. At that point, I remembered the time when I was little, when I had no sense of balance and, when I'm about to fall, I use my forehead instead of my arms to cushion my fall. I stood out from my cousins, since I was the only one with a large bump on my forehead.
I was already readying myself for class when I realized that my schedule and list of classrooms was missing. I searched for it everywhere, and then I found it in my portfolio. Doing so, though, made me late for my first class. Luckily, the professor wasn't there, so there was no class. still, i thought that I can't do such things if I want to last here.
The day before, I already familiarized myself with the surroundings and the buildings where my classes are. Nevertheless, I still got lost in the campus. I ended up in the wrong classrooms, and was mostly late because of it.
Negativity came to me that day. I almost lost hope. But then some of my new friends in UP told me that I was too much of a pessimist. They said that I make others uncomfortable because of my pessimism. So I vowed to myself that, if I last without complaining until the end of the week, I'll never shift courses or leave the campus.
The next days, I found more friends. I took walks in the presence of beautiful sceneries, something I never see in the urbz. My heart longed for trees, and they were sated in UPLB.
I did last.
And so I learned that I must finish what I started. I don't want to be ningas-kugon. Such behavior is not me. And so I will reach my finish line in UPLB.
I digressed a little there.
Still, the prudent writer keeps the reasons of others in mind. I am sad that some of my friends will go away from UPLB, but I will support them still. Distance is but a physical boundary, and such boundaries do little to undermine such bonds as friendship. No matter where my friends are, they are still my friends. Communication these days became easier anyway.
So, to all my friends, no matter how far you are from me, I'll always be here when you need me. I'm just a text, email, or blog comment away. Never hesitate to come to me when you are troubled. RXZ loves his friends, and would do wondrous things for them.
Luckily, R.E.M.S. isn't going to be separated anytime soon. SANDY!!! SELENA!! MIKKI!! Tuloy tayo sa Tuesday ah. Bahala na kayo kung Ristretto or Boston Cafe.
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